Friday, July 17, 2009

The New Trial

It's official, I have completed six straight weeks of EFY. I wanted to quickly record some things that happened during my 4th week of EFY in Pocatello. Well, just a precursor, I did not apply to work in Rexburg, Idaho this summer. I figured there were two potential reasons I was hired...1. so I would decide not to do EFY this summer or 2. there was a reason. Well, in our fourth week, I began to have really bad headaches and my jaw began hurting. I've always joked that my face is not symmetrical and manly on one side. Well--I began to have jaw pain. Erin, a girl on my team, drove past a TMJ specialist and I decided to look him up. I scheduled an appointment and my friend, and the Health Counselor, Brittany came with. They took a CAT scan of my head and noticed that every time I close my mouth when speaking, sleeping, and eating, my jaw slides out of the joint. If this continues to occur, my jaw will fall back into my face and the doctor explained that I would turn "ugly." I know, he is really sensitive. Anyways, he explained the process and that if my jaw is not corrected, I could have severe headaches daily which could prevent me from working in the future. Honestly, I had a break down. I lost it. I was so emotional and just was in utter shock. I returned to the dorms where my BC team was waiting. I received a blessing which was probably the most powerful experience of my life. The Lord gave me many promises about my future, family, and my jaw. I know I was in Pocatello for a reason (with the only TMJ specialist of his caliber in a 300 mile radius).

I took his advice to take care of the problem now. He explained the process. I would be given an emergency appliance which sticks to my top, front six teeth and must be worn at all times until a real appliance is created. With this appliance (actually both appliances), I am on a liquid diet. I had a lisp at the beginning, but now I am almost confident with my "S's." I have been wearing the appliance for 2.5 weeks...and yes...that means I have not had solid foods for 2.5 weeks. I am just loving that I am in Idaho--the potato capital of the world. Mashed potatos are my best friend.

The process will be very long. I will come back to Pocatello on Monday to receive my real appliance. I will wear it for 9-12 months (yep...liquid diet for a year). Then I will recieve braces to correct my bite. It'll cost over $5,000 not including braces. I'm really just learning how perfectly everything worked together for me. I'm in the most random place in the world, where there happens to be a TMJ specialist. Not only that, but I recieved a teaching job, which will allow me to pay the $11,000 tab (because insurance does not)...

Anyways, it's been really hard but I have been around the most supportive people ever. My team--Jan, Brad, Brittany, Erin, Janelle, Brendan, Braden, Alex, and Brennen--have been so understanding. We now create cheers that make fun of my lisp when introducing the BCs every business meeting. Counselors chipped in to give me a $70 Jamba gift card. I'm pretty sure I am surrounded by the most charitable people on earth. I really have been humbled through this experience. It's interesting that this all happened two days after I prayed to be humbled so I could more effectively teach our topic of the week--humility. I know that I have been really blessed and I'm glad that I'm able to be so positive about it now. I haven't always been, but I'm so grateful for quality friends, family, and my Savior. I know I can go to them with all my struggles--and at least one of them will understand.

11 comments:

Justin and Coralie said...

Amber-

It's Justin. Just wanted to let you know that you are in our prayers. You have a great attitude about this whole experience and that's going to get you through!

We love our "Namber" (as Jaden would say). Come see us soon.

Caroline said...

Will we get to see you at Jayson's wedding? Hope so! Sorry to hear about your TMJ but you are so positive...it's inspiring! Sure love you and hope to see you in a few days.

Lisa said...

Oh my goodness! Amber, I love you and you're in my prayers! When will I get to see you? I'll make you a really yummy smoothie and come up with some other tasty treats!

Mindy said...

Oh, my word!! I cannot believe you have waited this long to tell us!!! AMBER! I would have been praying for you for weeks now! I cannot believe you will be on a liquid diet for a year! Is that possible? How will you not die?!? Can you brush your teeth? Hon, I am so sorry!!!! I love you! If there is ever anything I can do, let me know!

browneyedgirl said...

Amber! Bless your heart for being so amazing! You are truly going to be blessed for it! Let me know if there is anything at all I can do for you! I miss you! Love you girl!

The life of a college girl said...

Oh Amber!!! I love you. I am glad that you are so strong. Of all places for this to happen, EFY. But you are surrounded by people that love you, you are strong. Love you to pieces! Miss you!

Nicole D said...

Amber, I'm so happy you posted - it's good to hear what's going on in your life, but so sad to hear about your jaw pain, and that you have to wear an appliance! And braces! And foot the bill! Lance and I were both shocked with the $11,000 pricetag. Ouchie. Keep us updated, I hope the headaches and jaw pain subside. Love ya!

Simonds Family said...

wow.

siovhan said...

YOU ARE A ROCKSTAR. I'm consistently amazed and humbled by your willingness to submit to whatever is dealt to you. The Lord always has an interesting means to answer our prayers, and I'm impressed with your attitude in reaction to this trial. I love you, lady.

Laura Chapman said...

Oh wow, that's quite the experience. I hope you don't wither away on a liquid diet...Good luck finishing up EFY and come visit as soon as you get back!

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